I feel like i come up with alot of stupid excuses and then i make some far fetched excuses to cover it up. But when can you actually say, "Yeah i am pretty shit, i have a good reason to be, i'm sorry" and get away with it? Instead i make up some stupid excuse which there fore makes me feel even more redunkiculous. Denial is m best friend, so that's why i'm always 'happy'. Kicking alot of home truths like the sorrow in this pugs eyes. Dunno where this came from but hey.
I'm glad i have people on the same level, today is my first of February, (i fucked up yesterday's first of feb. I spent it lying in bed staring out the window at the blue skies.) I dunno how i can tell my tutor, hey i'm really shit and i have reasons to be with out sounding like bullshit.
Waiting to sober up before i head into uni, i feel i'm three quarters through the process, after a hot shower i'll be good to go.